As I Sat on the Bus # 32: Roxanne Contemplates an Answer

I don’t even want to go to work this morning. I’m sick to my stomach but I know it’s just nerves. I have to meet with Ms. Senter first thing this morning and give her an answer about the New York trip. I still don’t know what I am going to say. I wish I had someone to talk to someone to confide in and get advice from.

My heart hurts and it’s my own fault. All through high school I managed to stay away from boys but as soon as I get a good job I fall in love. I’m so stupid. When Ms. Senter asked me if I realized Brad was gay I didn’t have an answer for her. It was like someone had punched me in the gut. I didn’t dare show my feelings but it was hard to hide my surprise. “Oh, I just thought you knew” she said casually. I tried to play it cool but I wanted to run and run hard. “I never really thought about it” I said as nonchalantly as I could muster.

“You don’t have to give me an answer today Roxanne” she said. “I will need one first thing in the morning, though”.

As I sat on the bus I looked at my reflection in the window it was obvious I didn’t sleep well last night. This is one morning I wish the ride was longer.
Ha, I never thought I would wish for that!


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